I work as a researcher and writer for a service that promises to obliterate the question mark by answering any question any time. Well, I'm going through quite a 'big questions' phase at the moment; not in a traumatic, dark-night-of-the-soul sort of way, but in that I'm trying to search out the deep things.
Part of that has been provoked by a renewed friendship: Craig, an old classmate with whom I've found myself working after well over a decade without seeing him; we weren't particular friends when we knew each other. But things have really clicked, and we've enjoyed many a philosophical conversation over a pint in the last couple weeks.
Part of it has been my friend Phil, who asked me the point of continuing to go to church if my beliefs had departed so radically from 'historic Christianity'. It started me wondering what really unites Christians. Fact is, I don't feel any less a part of the Church, any less a Christian, or any less a wholehearted participant in the worship of the Church just because I'm probably the single most heretical individual in my parish on a Sunday morning. There's something else that's binding us together as a community of God, and it's not just a matter of beliefs or doctrine.
Here are some thoughts from the last few weeks of searching:
The universe is characterized by change; if we're not changing, we're out of step with the rest of the universe. (Thanks, Craig.)
Everything's the same, even if it's different. (Thanks, I Heart Huckabees and, to some extent, The Dreamers.)
'Humanity is the cipher of God' (Karl Rahner)
I find myself more and more looking to humanity and human nature for answers, seeing more and more that 'God' and humanity are inextricably bound together. Oh, I know, this is downright heretical and unchristian -- supposedly -- but it's just where I'm going.
I plan to dip into Thomas Merton (don't know why, except that I happened upon a couple cheap Merton paperbacks in a second-hand store yesterday and felt drawn to them) and maybe the process theologians. This whole 'bound up' thing is looking more real these days.